There is nothing more important than family and the love of a child. I was so blessed to have FiFi, an angel and a gift from heaven and we were excited about her birth.  Our child, created in love and eagerly wished for, has died-never to be nestled securely in our arms in this lifetime. The pain and disappointment is great and the loss will be carried heavily in our hearts for all our days. The love and support that we have received from all of our friends and family have helped significantly in getting us through this difficult time.

Each life comes into this world with a mission. Sometimes the mission or purpose is clear; sometimes it is vague and shrouded in misunderstandings. In time, we will see what this baby’s mission was on earth. Could it have been just to add a little flicker of love that otherwise may never have been lit? Was it to soften our hearts so that we may in turn comfort others? Could it have been to bring us closer together?

This child’s life was short, yet the death has left a huge void in all of hearts and lives. There is no easy way for me to say goodbye. We can’t dwell on the sadness or keep asking the question “why?” We will never find a reason why such a smart, cheerful, and beautiful child was taken from our lives at the age of 9 months. Instead, we should focus on how happy she made us when she was in our lives. We will miss Fi Fi forever and will always remember her smiles and laughter. Let us remember today and for always the tiny baby who will never see childhood or adulthood, but will remain our tiny baby forever.

 

 

 POEM 

Just those few months:

I had you to myself. And that seems too short time to be changed so profoundly.

 

In those few months:

I came to know you…and to love you. You came to trust met with your life. Oh, what a life I had planned for you!

 

Just those few months:

When I lost you, I lost a lifetime of hopes, plans, dreams, and aspirations. A slice of my future simply vanished overnight.

 

Just those few months:

It might not have been enough time to convince others how special and important you were. How I had lost a truly unique person that I will never know.

 

You were for just those few months, My Little One, My Baby Girl:

You darted in and out of my life too quickly. But it seems that’s all the time you needed to make my life so much richer and give me a small glimpse of eternity.